Friends around me :

1) Just got to know that an ex-good friend of mine, J, (we are still friends, just that not as close now) and her younger sis (who is turning 21 in july) are pregnant at the same time, they are both delivering in july and both are carrying baby boys.... That is double joyous occasion. It will be her 2nd child and her younger sis's 1st.... What a great piece of news that is... felt so happy for them...

2) Saw C last friday during mahjong session... my gosh! Her stomach has gotten so huge, i couldn't believe my eyes, i mean i just din see her for about a month and there were so much difference to the size of her tummy... No wonder, she's been complaining abt being uncomfortable and couldn't sleep properly at nite... who could? I mean, what's more, hers are twins leh (enormous accomplishment), both are baby girls, she was telling me that she had pre-booked the caesearean date on 22/5/03 but it could be earlier if she's still so uncomfortable, in fact, she might be admitted tomorrow as she has another checkup tomorrow....

3) Haven't seen E for a long time, in fact, eversince her birthday, got to know her pregnancy first through a mutual friend of ours... Guess i understand why she doesn't want to say it, it hasn't been easy for her to get pregnant in the first place. Her expected delivery is in late august, this period has been especially tiring for her due to her health but i know that she has been trying her best. Will be meeting up wif her soon to pass her my invitation card...

Heard from my make-up artist that this is a good year to give birth, I wonder how true that is...... Anyway, for all mothers and mothers-to-be , Happy Belated Mother's Day....

One good news : I have quit smoking!!!

Yah, I know, there will be comments like 'sure or not???' or 'how can that be, you are such a heavy smoker?' Even my own hubby have doubts whether I really did smoking (though the date he tot i quit smoking is different from the date that I really did quit), he called me up at intervals and if i'm not at my desk, he will popped me questions like : ' u catching a puff har' when i was actually buying snacks or at the washroom... Haiz, I dun blame anybody, I dun even believe it myself that I can cut down and eventually quit smoking. It's not an easy path and there are temptions from time to time especially there are so many smokers around me, but i know that by quitting, it's for my own good and a lot of ppl will support my decision...

One bad news : I have gain weight!!!!

They say : ppl who quit smoking will definitely put on weight, i wonder how true izzit... But then again, I have really, really put on weight and I'm really eating lots nowadays... Ha ha ha, so much for weight control... Think I flunked badly this time...

One announcement : Bring Forward

I'm going to bring forward my wedding dinner to June.... It's finalised on 8th June 2003... Dun ask me why coz there are reasons which I can't say them now (buddies tat know, please help me to keep this secret for the time being)..., invitation cards will be sent out in 2 weeks' time. There are many things that need to be done but till date i haven't done anything yet...*sheepish grin*

TIme to get my ass moving.....

*Singing to myself*

Rain, Rain come again
Wash my troubles all away
May the good things come again!!!

Haiz, when will the hiccups ever stop!!!

To my friends who are ..... Playboy/girl Type

Never say "I love u" if u don't care
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there
Never touch a life if u mean to break a heart
Never say u will, if you don't plan to start
Never look in the eye when all u do is lie
The cruellest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love
when he doesn't intend to catch her fall
-and it works both ways-

To my friends who are ..... Married

Love is not about "it's your fault" but "i'm sorry"
Not "where are u" but "i'm right here"
Not "how could u" but "i understand"
Not " i wish u were" but "i'm thankful u are"

To my friends who are ..... Engaged

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together
But how good u are for each other

To my friends who are ..... Heartbroken

Heartbreaks last as long as u want
And cut as deep as u allow them to go
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks
But to learn from them

TO BE CONTINUED ....

Countdown : 2 more days to my birthday......

To all my friends who are ....... Single

Love is like a butterfly,
The more u chase it,
The more it eludes u,
But if u just let it fly,
It will come back to u when u least expect it.
Love can make u happy and often it hurts,
But love's only special,
When u give it to someone who's really worth it,
So take your time and choose the best.

To all my friends who are..... Not So Single

Love isn't about becoming somebody else "perfect person"
It's about finding someone who helps u become the best person u can be

TO BE CONTINUED.....

U ask me 2 "take care", U said " Pls dun be sorry, u r not wrong, just that i'm weak" U hoped " from the deepest bottom of my heart, i sincerely wish u all the best" suddenly, i felt something got stuck in my throat, i felt as if i'm gasping for air, i experienced all the emotions which i tot i will never experience again ever since Collin left...I felt as if the world has close up on me, I was stuck in a corner with no place to run or hide from the impact u have given me... I felt like crying for help but no voice came out from my throat, i felt so stifled up.... i i i....

I'm lost but at the same time, i felt a sense of relief... U r rite to choose to go, U have yr rights to lead the kind of life that u want to... I was wrong to stand in yr way, U deserve to have someone who can love u completely, someone whom u dun need to share wif another person... I'm relieved not to carry the burden anymore but at the same time, i felt a sense of loss... I think it's natural for me to feel this way, afterall we had been together for 1 yr+ ... I won't call it a short period of time, nope, i won't...

I will cherish the memories that you have given me and i wish u all the best too...

Take care!

Just read on Sat an email which my colleague forwarded to me : about how different horoscopes will fare in the year of Goat.... Almost vetted thru' everything but most of the attention was actually on Snake, my horoscope.... Wealth : no good, not suitable for investments, Career : no career advancements, best to stay in current job and hopefully a breakthrough, Health : no good, weak health, will fall sick easily, there might slight or even major accidents, Love : nothing interesting though spouse/yourself may have extra-martial affair..... Overall Comments : Super Suay!!!!

I wonder whether izzit by sheer coincidence or whether all this are really true... That very day... something happened...

My sister-in-law was involved in an accident... Her husband was driving and she was sitting at the passenger seat when a Mercedes knocked into them, straight into my sister-in-law's side, causing her spinal cord to be dislocated and at the same time affecting the nerves , she was straightaway admitted to NUH, but NUH were left wif no ICU beds thus she was then transferred to SGH where at the same time she was operated on...

The doctor-in-charge said that even after the surgery, she have only 20% chance of recovery... Nobody could believe that!!! She's only 25 (same age as me, in fact we were schoolmates) and her little boy is only 3 years old... Much as the operation was a success later (we knew abt it yesterday), she will need lots of patience and physiotherapy b4 she could even walk her 1st step again....

Life is unpredictable, isn't it?